We don't want to tip over the tarantula.

The best time to blog might be when you're doing something, but for some reason you have to put it on hold. You're doing something, so your mind is busy thinking of whatever is you may think of, but you have to put your body to rest and just sit and think. Why not just think and type and think and blog and type and think? It sounds like a pretty logical idea to me, but most people always brush off my ideas like they're too out-there or something.. definitely not.

I finally saw Cannibal Holocaust. Twice. I can truthfully say that I'm traumatized and scared of myself for separate reasons. This movie might cause PTSD for me. Probably not, but it just might. This is the closest I've ever come to being on the verge of vomiting and crying during a film since The Meat Video. (I very much would not recommend watching that video.)  That movie makes me lose so much respect for humanity, though it's not like I had much in the first place. And I know, I KNOW it's just a movie, but there are people out there who will burn down tribes of people to try and look like they discovered something so inhumane in a country not their own. How could anyone want to harm people to make themselves look like a hero? One time a kid in my class said, "if someone killed someone for me I would love them!" Everyone laughed and agreed as I sat there in disgust. The teacher also would not take my comment where I come back and say, "I'm ashamed you'd be happy to see someone dead. That's such a terrible thing to say. No one deserves to die as a punishment." Though, I tell you this as I'm about to go on and mention how I was cheering on the cannibals as they killed and ate the people who terrorized them... I'm choosing to look past my indecisive thoughts some might refer to as "hypocrisy." PSH. It's just a movie, guys. A film that shows four animals being killed. FIVE animals were killed during the making of this movie because they had to film one scene twice, and you can't re-kill something or even use it's dead body. The producers apologize for this movie three fucking times before and after the actual film. It was censored and banned in plenty of countries. And the sad thing is.. the second time I watched it, I wasn't horrified. In fact, I was barely bothered. Now I want to watch all of Ruggero Deodato's movies, even though they seem a little bit the same. Ruggero Deodato was actually SUED for the murder of someone in this movie, and they had to prove she wasn't actually dead. `After I watched Cannibal Holocaust for the second time, I watched I Spit On Your Grave. My day was filled with all the rape and detachment of penises my little heart could desire.

This man loves cannibals, rape, and the cutting of penises