You worry about the wrong thangs.

Shoutsout to Christmas Hauls!

Just kidding.

This is what I did with myself Christmas Eve night and yesterday when I went to hang out with my family to watch a football game.

Tried an upper white lip first. lol. didn't work out too well. 

look how creepy this is! haha! 

Is it too obvi I used photobooth for this?

Fuck if I ever learn how to fucking work this site. 

And the forests will echo with laughter

Take a second to think of some difficult life tasks. I'm just gonna go ahead and assume that you didn't put Christmas shopping on your list, even though you definitely need to. That shit has everybody stressin. There are so many people you feel like you should get something for, because they at least mean a little bit to you. They mean enough to want to show them they are appreciated, but sometimes you don't know what to get them. Sometimes, your paycheck can only afford a few people at a time even when you don't put any money into your savings just because you know you'll need it for Christmas shopping. There's also the issue I quite frequently run into where you go shopping for other people then see something you really want that's on sale so you get it, then immediately feel guilty you didn't save that money to spend on someone else or to put in your savings. Why do I need more things? Christmas is coming and I still have half the people on my list to find gifts for! I also have higher end taste, so it's hard for me to just choose some shotty present just to say I got someone something. It's funny because I'm currently shopping for people and saving links to things that I can't afford right now but will be able to once I get my check for this week.
Then what do you do if someone you didn't plan on getting for gets something for you? You feel so bad because now you're in a pickle! You want to get them something but you don't have the money, and you can't push everyone else on your list back. What do you even give that person?

My little solution to it all, is get for immediate family and significant other first, others will understand when their presents aren't there on Christmas. At least let's hope so.

In other words this whole post is for this: 
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wed1lI3B7Xk

Into this world we're thrown.

Lately, I've felt like I have a lot of knowledge to share with people. I always want to talk about something. Yet, why is it when I sit down to blog, I can't really figure out what to say? I'm not quite sure why that is. That wasn't some sort of rhetorical question. Somewhere along the lines something happened in my brain, shutting off all creativity and sass I held for writing. Should I blame my AP Language and Composition class? I guess I could, but I don't know if I want to. I would rather force myself to sit down and write than find a reason why I can't sit down and write.

Do you ever have a teacher that says some good shit but then other times you're like "This bitch is high on bullshit,"? That's my sociology teacher. It's a college course, she teaches at a community college down the way. She'll stand there (more like she'll lean against a desk in a way that looks really uncomfortable because i feel the corner of the table is poking her butt) and will talk about case studies or people she works with, or a lot of straight to the point sociology/communication stuff and I totally agree with her. Then there are other times when she says things and I have to keep my mouth shut, then after class find this girl and we bitch about how mad she made us. One time when we were talking about the Industrial Revolution she brought up how people in other countries are getting more jobs for making things (i.e. clothes, toys, cars, etc) and how it's not right that our American jobs are being taken by other country people because they think Americans are "too expensive." She was just ranting about how we were being played so dirty. I just wanted to be like, "It's not that we're too expensive, it's that they're abusing those people in those countries! Those people working in factories are not making then money they need to live. We shouldn't be upset about how they're taking our jobs. We should be upset they're being taken advantage of." Of course I kept my mouth shut. And again kept my mouth shut when she talked about how it wasn't Walmart's fault that they had lead in their toys because they weren't the ones making it, China was. Oh my lawd I almost walked out that day! Don't you think it's a company's responsibility to know WHO'S making their products, HOW they're making them, and WHAT they're making them with? I sho do! But, hey, what the fuck do I know? (I'm not a Chitown nigga with a nice flow but that sure would've been convenient if I was.) The other day, she mentioned how we've had a cure for cancer for about 40 years now, but the medical companies don't want to release it. Medical companies do some FUCK UP SHIT. But, I don't exactly believe we've had a cure for cancer that long. Sometimes, when people get mad at her, I believe they might just not really be understand completely what she's saying. She frequently talks shit about Obamacare, and people will role their eyes. It's true, though. Obamacare isn't going that well... at all. She never said why she thought it was going poorly! She's not talking shit about Obama, and she's not praising any Republican "enemy" of his, but for some reason people get offended by what she's saying. They're assuming she doesn't like Obama because she's talking shit about Obamacare when she really never said anything of the sort. People jump to conclusions quickly. It's just strange how one day I can really dig what she's saying, and feel completely absorbed in the lecture, then other days I just space out because I know if I listen I'm just going to get more and more frustrated. Life be like that sometimes.

It's a great day for genocide

The worst part about a technology-filled society is that I'm fucking techno-tarded. I don't know shit about how to work a computer or go about fixing something that's broken. Every time I think I'm having a major break through, a little box pops up and tells me something has gone awry. Awesome. When I try to go and get help, it seems that no one around me knows what to do, either. Is anyone even trained on technology??? Like, seriously, (okay maybe not seriously). But, it feels like half of us know what the hell we're doing, and the other half are just waiting for someone to tell us what to do. How am I supposed to rely on technology in my society when damnear a select few are the only ones who know how to work it? There's no way we can run on computers and smart phones if we don't know how to properly work them. It's like trying to turn America into a country where we rely on horses for everything, but most of us don't even know how to get on a horse, let alone know how to ride one. It just doesn't work! The people who should be in charge, the ones with the best morals and are at least fairly intelligent, can't do so if they don't know how to work a freaking piece of technology. Then again, I'm sure you can hire someone to do it for you. Still, why should it come down to that? We don't all speak different languages, we shouldn't need a fucking interpreter.

I was at the Microsoft store yesterday and the day before because my computer was 1) broken and 2) hates me. I can't figure out how to do anything on this laptop. Windows 8 is so complicated, and apparently I need a Microsoft account to do everything. It won't even let me download the Skype app and log into my previous Skype account, it's telling me to make a new one to go with my Microsoft account. The people at the Microsoft store couldn't even find a way around it. Does that make any sense? I want a computer that let's me do what I have to do, not make a whole new identity. If I wanted that, I'd ditch this town and call myself Corella as I moved to France to ride elephants in a French circus. When someone who is supposed to be skilled at working with your type of computer and can't even give you an answer as to why they can't help you, something is very very wrong. Then, while they were attempting to get my computer to cooperate, my lock button broke on my phone. Technology should not be this imperative for me that I rely on it every single day to get through. I have to bring my laptop to school everyday to get things done. Pretty sure I was fine taking tests on paper and not having to look things up in class. I know how to get around the system and get on social media sites. (Obviously I didn't figure it out myself, my friend who knows what he's doing set it up for me.) If I can beat the system, plenty of other people can beat the system. Then what do you have left? A school filled with hooligans who already sneak their phones into class all the time, and are now allowed a larger piece of technology to abuse, pretty much with permission. How are they gonna know what you're doing on your own device? They don't. (Well, maybe they can check, but they're not going to unless you give them some sort of reason to suspect you.) This whole idea of BYOD aka Bring Your Own Device is ridiculous. Everyone I know prefers to take a test on a piece of paper, or have something tangible. Not a screen I have to stare at that makes me see stars when I actually lift my head up for fresh air and to give my little girl eyeballs a rest. On the bright side, eventually with evolution we'll stop getting Carpal Tunnel. On the other hand (why isn't it called "the dark side", if we have a bright side, we should have a dark side), that is the only plus, at least the only one I can think of.

Look at me. I take pictures during school all the time and no one says anything to me. That's not okay! I should paying attention in class, but teachers don't seem to "notice" that I'm taking pictures of myself and everyone around me. The last picture is me from like 10 minutes ago, while the rest of my class is taking a midterm test. I got done early and so I started fucking around. The second to last picture was last week, where I was also taking a midterm test. But who gives a fuck what I'm doing on my technology? The teacher is even in the picture. (I promise the teacher is not the one who's head I am squeezing.)

Technology needs a little cut back, I say. 

I tried to be good but I'm just bad bad bad bad bad

Often I find myself with the urge to get on here and rant, but what do I even talk about? I don't really have much to say, or if I do, by the time I sit down to write about it the passion is gone or I forget what I was trying to preach. It happens to the best of us, though. So, the point is; the current post will have no moral significance for anyone. Or at least I have no intentions of such. It's just an outfit post! (ooh my favorite!) I completely lack on talking about style when that's why I made this damn blog in the first place.

aww look at dat qt

I made a head chain! I bought a chain from Michael's, as well as some jumper chain things, and a set of three elephant charms. I just measured around my head, cut the chain, then attached the two ends with the jumper. After that i put the elephant charm on. The head chain is also supposed to have a link that goes over the top of my head, but the chain around fits my head well, and it being like that, it would look a little strange if I just had a chain on the top of my head. I'm going to make another and hopefully it'll work out better. The elephant tickles my head a lot..

The only weird thing about the top photo is the fact that the triangle of colors is pointing straight at my vagina, so you really notice that general area. I know it works like that because I'm in AP 2D art, not because I'm actually informed on the workings of the brain. 

You know I know when it's a dream.

Imagine me on Twitter, per usual, then seeing a friend of mine and some of her school friends going on a rampage of "culture appreciation" and that's why they don't wear bindis anymore. First of all, women in India don't even use bindis as a sign of marriage or anything anymore. It's just a part of their culture! How can someone tell me I'm in the wrong for looking at another culture, liking what they do, and trying it out myself? I looked it up before I started wearing them. Gwen Stefani did it, HELLLOOOOO. Is it seriously that big of a deal? First of all, these girls talking about this are not of any Indian decent. They are straight white living in the middle of Indiana. What do they know? My friend had an Indian girl from her school give her bindis that she doesn't wear anymore. I think people just like to make a big deal out of nothing. I see no issues here. Who are they to say what another country is feeling? Did anyone even tell them this idea of "don't wear bindis because of culture appreciation"? Where did it even come from? I literally have so many questions. And I was honestly being kind of a bitch about it on Twitter. I brought up the fact that Ancient Egytians started using makeup as a class symbol and other shit. So, therefore, they need to wipe all that makeup off their face due to "culture appreciation" to the Ancient Egyptians. I just see no point of this other than to start drama. There are other ways people violate "culture appreciation". I don't know what else I have to say.

It hurts my heart a little bit how Feminism is becoming a fashion statement. I know a lot of girls who claim to be all about girl power, and that they're Bi. Well, I actually was sitting at the lunch table in school one day, when the topic of a not very nice girl got brought up, and my friend said, "One of my friends had sex with her and said she's really hairy." Then they proceeded to talk about how that was weird. Me, being the person I am, spoke up and said, "I don't think it really matters. If she doesn't want to shave she doesn't have to." WELL. HERE'S WHERE THINGS GET CRAZY. The proclaimed feminist said, "Oh I totally agree. But I think it's okay if you're trying to make a statement. If you're just lazy then you need to get it together." IS. DIS. A. JOKE. What is the point of making a statement if not for a cause?? That's the kind of statement you can only make if you're going to be throwing your vagina at people. If you want to, whatever, but you shouldn't be tossing that thing around just to make a statement that has no backup because you don't even believe in the backup. Some people make no sense. I think I made an argumentative point, then shut my goddamn mouth because I wanted nothing further of the conversation. The supposed feminist is a nice girl, I'm just now concerned that other females might feel this way as well. If so, we're fucked. It defeats the point of being a feminist and makes a mockery of it. The point is for women to have equal rights and a say in what they want to do with their body. Not to be criticized for doing what they want by another feminist because she's not doing it to make a "statement".

I give up on life.

Something takes a part of me.

I've come to good terms with myself on a few things I was weary on before. (This doesn't include the assignment for an AP class I have due before school starts. I'm still a little awe-struck about this. What can you expect from me?) I bet you're hoping I have come to terms with great soul-inspiring human issues. No. They're mostly shallow; appearance related. Do you know who inspires me the most? Arabelle Sicardi. I looked to her when I knew it was time to dye my hair purple in a non-emo way. I love it when her roots grow out. I watched Project Runway (and the last two episodes of season 4 of Drop Dead Diva last night) and guess who was there. Kelly Osbourne. Her hair is purple, her roots are grown out, and she's beautiful. I can do what I want with my hair and make myself what I want with it. It's not about what you do, it's what you do with it. It's like a pair of shoes. It's how your personality plays into it, and how you style them that makes your style/personality aura. Maybe I'm not the best at explaining things, so I'll just talk about this amazing purple lipstick I got off of Etsy.

Just kidding. This post was started about two weeks ago and since then my baby Macbook has committed suicide and I now have a new computer. I wouldn't have this new computer if my school didn't require me to either bring a device or use another brain washing machine they provide. Well, guess what. I don't have a Macbook anymore. It's an Acer I got at the Windows store at the Fashion Mall near my house. I'm so sad to have lost my baby and this computer made me cry when I got home because it's not the same (I'm also emotional and probably a brat. but mostly emotional.). Let's just say me and whoever is in charge of Mac are gonna have a little chat aka me putting my fist in their face. My whole family (mom, uncle, grandma) put money together to get me a used macbook for this past Christmas, keep in mind it's only Augusts now, and the Mac store won't fix my old child, or even supply the parts for me to have someone else fix it. My Mac turned five years old in January, since then it's been considered "vintage" and they won't fix it. The graphic card just went out or something. It wasn't my fault. I didn't spill anything on my computer. Mac just wants me to spend another thousand at their store for it to commit suicide in five and a half years to spend another thousand, or more. It's really sad. I also lost of pictures and files. They won't do anything. I'm so fed up because honestly I'm so comfortable with Macs and they're so neat and easy to use, but for the price you pay in the long run, they aren't worth it. Fuck it.