Mother should I trust the government?

There are many things good about summer, but if you are a fuckass, they could easily rot away in the palm of your hand.

I've had to work long shifts this previous Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. I've been at my dad's house since I got off work on Sunday and will be returning later today (Wednesday). I have no friends here in this neighborhood. There are no places to walk. I have my computer and books. Well, Sydney, Why don't you just run along and read a book in a tree? You see, mother, I can't because I HAVE TO WATCH MY DEMENTED GRANDMA. She's a nice lady, but very crazy. I have to keep an eye on her. Thus meaning I have to stay in the house with her all day. I don't get to enjoy this wonderful weather with myself, nor my friends, since I am not near them. I'm not sure if I'm even allowed to go in the backyard and tan while she's in the house. I'm getting paler by the moment! It's heartbreaking, it truly is. I can't enjoy the good weather, or freedom of summer. Shoot, I can't even enjoy proper vision because I don't have another pair of contacts or glasses to get me through today. I feel like a lost kitten in a damp, dark box. I just want to go home!

Imagine being in that position; a damn kitten in a damn dark, damp cardboard box. All you want is to go home! Don't be sad because you have "nothing to do", so you sit inside all day on a nice summer 24 hour period. Go outside! I'm a big supporter of art making at times like this. I know, it's a little hard to be inspired while you're bored. Generally, once you force yourself to start, there's really no stopping you. Making art helps a lot. Prepare a nice meal for yourself or family! Go take pictures of plants and bugs (That's what I do..) or something better like people on the street in the middle of an awkward pose! Find something nice to wear and walk down where there are people and make new friends (or don't) There are so many options if you can just get that lazy booty off the couch. The hardest part is getting started, I promise.

Don't immediately get on the computer, that leads to hours spent doing nothing without realizing it. All you dang teenagers have smart phones (tuh) so check what you have to check on there. That way you'll get bored after you've checked all your social networkings and you'll be ready to go do something. That helps me in the morning to get up. If I find it hard to get up I get on my ex-Iphone to look at Twitter/Facebook/Instagram. I don't think I actually pay attention to whatever's on the screen, but it wakes my brain up a little bit so I'm more aware and willing to get up. I then like to get myself a hot drink because that also will help, then take yourself from there! don't wait too long to put your clothes on. Putting them on in the beginning of your day will help make you feel ready to go whenever. Play music as you get al your shit done. Music gets everyone pumped! Duh! Unless it's Bright Eyes. Don't get me wrong, I fucking love Bright Eyes. But you know that shit is so un-energizing. It makes me want to cry in a shower or go to bed soon. Do what you want, but if you're going by my experienced judgement, I wouldn't choose Bright Eyes as the best thing to wake up to in the morning. So pretty much he moral of the story is: Get up and do something with your life. The more you do in a day the happier you will be.

Nobody told me about her

First, I want you take a moment and soak in the feeling you get when you're on a plane for a few hours and literally don't know what the fuck you're doing. Some of the pictures to and fro Florida are me in an airport and in a plane trying to figure out what's going on. Planes really suck if the people around you aren't any fun (AKA family). Unless, you know, your family is really fun and also happen to find great ways to past time on a plane besides taking Xanax and a drink then passing out. That shit doesn't fix anyone else's problems on the plane unless they're trynna share. If it's your mom, I'd hope she wouldn't share... I could think of reasons why she SHOULD. Maybe you have terrible anxiety? Or a fear of planes/heights? Other than that... I don't think your mom should be passing out Xanax and alcohol willy nilly like a religious person with brochures. It just ain't right ya feels.

I happened to be in Florida through the middle of review week before finals. It sounded fine at first, but actually it sucked. Only because I didn't have the chance to retake any tests or turn in late homework. Surprise Attack! Florida has hit me with Bronchitis. What kind of bullshit is that? I needed to be focusing on school but all I could focus on was all the mucus inside my skull, locked up, trying to escape through any hole. (maybe not any hole... That'd be a lil awkward) My grandma did buy me a lot of stuff and after the first day it got a little old. I don't really feel comfortable with people a bunch of stuff for me! She spent oodles of unnecessary money on me, my mom, and my little brother. It was crazy. Of course I got a lot of cool shit from her, but I still felt guilty. I had to walk away every time the cashier said the amount. Especially when we went to Ron Jon's by Cocoa Beach (or however it may actually be spelled). My brother and I got skimboards, which we aren't terribly good at. I had to get a new bikin top because the beautiful one I ordered from Asos couldn't defend my cleavage from the waves. It could be partially my fault since I only wear bandeaus due to the fact I hate stringy tan lines. The waves were not letting up on me, good thing I have no shame. Haha. I took so many pictures with my nice camera, a disposable camera, a water-proof disposable camera, and my mom's iPhone. We'll see which ones will actually work.

I'm da best at passing time

twinsies

IT GOT A BIRD IN IT NOSE

These are the only ones I really wanted to put on here from my nice camera. I tried to download those disks they give you at Walgreens with your disposable cameras, but my computer kept rejecting it. Even though those photos and this computer would be perf together.

Once I get done with finals and actually get myself together I'll post about all the cool stuff I got. I need an outfit post. Haven't had one in a min.